my moms coming home this sat.. this means 2 weeks of shopping spree!! and im supposed to be excited and all.. but m not..

panu.. pag c mama nsa bhay prang may martial law... lahat bawal.. pati fone..pati tv.. and for sure i wont be able to join my friends sa mga gmik gmik nila.. khit na ung mga diner out lng.. like this Rockista concert my friends have been talking about.. hay nako.. m not even planning on how to tell my mom about it.. madidisapoint lng ako..

and eto pa.. c mama kc super duper strict pag dating sa cleanliness sa bahay.. pero take note.. ayaw nya ng katulong.. cos according to her.. andito nmn daw ako.. tama b nmn gawin akong katulong??? haller??!! nde ako nagaral ng journlsm pra gawin house maid noh!!.. but ofcourse... i can only think of that come-back... d ko nmn kayng sbhin.. bka palayasin ako.,

i have a fever ryt now and i feel so damn weak.. but m actually up and cleaning coz ayokong madisapoint c mama pag uwi nya..

so.. wala lng.. nagpahinga lng ako sndali.,.

Who am I to complain anyway. Things have been like this since I was born. Except that before I was too fucking naïve to notice things aren’t as black n white as I want them to be. Why cant she tell stuff like that to other people?? Dsnt she even realize that im her freakin daughter and im not in the fuckin position to blatantly tell her that the shameless man simply dsnt love her and she just have to get over it?? She keeps on wailing about how that fucking man had been that same old fucking man ever since their marriage started, so how come shes still grumbling about it??

When she got in the room I was already asleep. But she woke me up anyway, she started telling me how she told him to get lost and all that crap. I don’t even know what to think anymore. So I just pretended to sleep. Then that damn sound caught my attention. My mom was crying and she was trying to hide it. I recognized it right away coz I had been exposed to that fucking situation a lot of times. My mom kept talking anyway. She was asking me what the fuck was wrong with my dad. Every inch of me wanted to fucking yell at her and tell her to grow up, but this fucking burning lump on my throat was starting to choke me. So I did wat I was particularly good at, pretending not to care at all.

Anyway, wen I woke up, I went out to get my med, and my dad was nowhere to be found.

I wasn’t really sure if that was relief or grief I actually felt for the moment.

yeah i know. this is probably the worst site uve ever seen. the colors reminds me of vomit. pero pagtiyagaan nyo muna. nakakatamad na eh. ive been trying to make it look not too obvius dat i stil dnt know anything bout tabulas. and i end up with this one.

yeah well.. atleast its not flooded with pink..

sa wakas!!! tapos na lahat ng articles!!!


dhil sa mga hinayupak na projects na yan.. i didnt had any energy to update... n i was lost of words for two days. naubus ang english ko sa mga punyetang articles na yan. i know i love pressure. but this is too much. kulang nlang mapanaginipan ko ung mga pinagsusulat ko.

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ive seen the movie feng shui. in fairness, the story was good. well, not that good, but good enough for a pinoy film. but the acting??
un ang scary. does kris know that the reason its called "acting" is to hide the fact that they are there because theyre paid millions to act. and the thing is that theyre not suppose to make it too obvius.

but anyway.. id love to tell all aobut the twist of the story, but id rather not. since im actually all alone hir.

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things have been cooling up at home. but im not happy. i know more than that. im not bothered either. i just dont care. at all. i simply grew out of it.

two suckers trying to pretend they are not aware of their suckiness.

what could be more depressing than that?

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i am nuts about go nuts donuts!!!!

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la lng,. maka update lng..

this day sucked

must be the coffee

must be you

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i know

it sucks

but it helps