[semi-edited] Two weeks of my ojt and still ive learned nothing but the fact that in a busy workplace, modesty aint tolerated. People shows off whenever opportunity strikes. Its sickening but what the hell. I guess ill just have to get used to it. The only thing that’s keeping from leaving is the guy who got me in, and of course, the allowance and free movie passes. I watched spanglish, and OH MY GOD, Adam sandler is starting to be my dream guy. Other stuff I learned in my ojt was that comm. Arts students were actually more than potential performers. How could I miss this fact when my co-ojt always rubs it in. she always talks about how complicated and versatile their course is, of which I actually agreed but finally got sick of it when one time, while I was browsing an add and she kept repeating “o kami gumagwa nyan.. grabe ang hirap.. kami magiisip ng isusulat dyan.. kelangan on the spot.. blahblahblah…” and I finally got to shut her up when I told her “kami gumagwa ng magazines eh”. So there. And yeah another thing i hate about my ojt is that everyday, I have to listen to my bosses baby talk!! Can you believe that im actually the youngest in there but then im the only one who talks fine!! I guess their actually missing being teens. Which reminds me. Im going to be twenty soon. And im so not ready to be one. After 2 long years, im once again on a much awaited state of KILIG. Something that I missed feeling. lets just wait and see if it works out

 

 

I was born not perfect because if I was, I would have lost my virginity a long long time ago

 

I wasn’t born a millionaire so that I could see beyond the surface

 

I was born lacking of confidence because if I was, god knows I could conquer the world

 

I was born with an immature dad so that I would know what being strong really meant

 

I was born with a nagger mom so that I would know what kind of family I would have if ever I become one

 

I was born with a weak brother so that I would realize, it could have been worst

 

I was born with wealthy but still unhappy friends to understand that hey, it’s not all about money

 

I was born surrounded with misfortunes so that I would learn to appreciate things that really matter

 

I was born optimistic so that I wouldn’t end up committing suicide

 

I was born not to have a significant other at this time of my life because if I did, I could have ran away with him

 

I was born a coward so that despite the shitty world I live in; I would end up curled up in bed, weeping myself to Him.

 

so i know i used to tease people who get all excited when faced with a star, but what the hell, ITS JAYR!!! la lng.. crush ko na tlga to every since. and when i heard he had a photo shoot at the inquirer's studio located right beside our office, i just had to see him!! and i did!!! oh my god, ambangobango nya!! shyet.. im becoming one of those silly fanatics who wails infront of celebrities. buti nlang i was able to hold it. well its not really a case of starstruck. imean the other day, drew arellano was there and i couldnt care any less. he was so small he looked liked a girl. he was actually more like a pretty boy than a gorgeous hunk.

anyway.. i guess the good thing about my new office is that when celebrities come for photo shoots, it would be impossible to miss it. i also saw tim yap who was a regular there. i know hes gay pero GOD!! hes such a waste. konti na nga lang gwapo nagiging bading pa. sana ung mga panget nalng ang mga naging bading. anyway, i would have been more than willing to take a picture with him but he was in a hurry. next time maybe 

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Yesterday it was kc monteros photo shoot. hes not really my type but what the heck, we took pictures with him anyway.

i just made a vow: starting monday, i have to be fashionable so that when celebrity comes id be more than ready arjay always tease me about my clothes, he says i look like im going to a party, well now i have a reason to back me up.

except on tuesday. im actually gonna play badminton with co-ojts and the IT boys from inquirer. first time!! YEY!!.. finally, a good way to loose weight.

(in case ur wonderin why ders a part II, the second picture wont show up on the first part.)

because of my desperate attempt to make my few days left as a teen worthy, i end up clubbing with my one and only gmik pal, FUFU. so i know youd think--and i totally understand if you do, since i thought the same thing--that we couldnt get any more desperate than that. but theres one thing you have to realize--and i also did--that its not really necesary to bring a bunch of unwilling friends. dis is not a desperate attempt to point out to my other friends that they are not needed, its just that we really had fun. all we wanted was to dance the night away, and we did. sure, we got home wet with sweat of unfamiliar partygoers, and my feet has actually developed a muscle of its own, and i just spent almost 800 without taking homw any object, (we were out for 12 straight hours, no exag. i actually just got home) but we did had fun you know. well, naturally i would rant about not being able to take home any guys number, but after seeing tel and fufus effort to lift my depresion, i just couldnt.

see, ive been grumpy about the fact that im fucking 20 and still a fucking V. how could i not be when i dont even have a fucking bf. but then again, after seeing tel and fufus effort to lift my depresion, it would be totally selfish of me to continue.

so anyway. bak to the gimik. the only thing i regret was that we also tried blu onion. there were no seats for us and no one was dancing, so we had to stay at the bar standing up. we then decided to go to basement as not to waste any more time. and we did.

oh. just a reminder. if ur thinking about trying cofi bean n tea leaf, go to starbucks instead, u wont be sorry.

shit does this entry seem to be leading nowhere? pardon the stinking language, i can still hear the music in my head. so i guess il end this for now. anwy, to fufu and tel, tnx so much. to tel, for the effort to meet with us kahit na dinner lng, and to fufu, for the effort to grant me my last dance{naka ng drama}. TTFN