ito ang entry ng isang studyanteng stressed sa pangongopya ng notes pra sa taxation, na hindi rin namn nagamit; puyat sa kakatelebabad; badtrip sa pagkakastranded sa ust; nalipasan ng gutom dahil sa walang pera, at badtrip sa taong nde marunong magtext: magulo, walang point at madaming gramatical errors.
in relation to my last entry "to dump or not to dump.." well... no need to think about it. i did it. dump him, i mean. actually if you look at it from outside the box it would be hard to decide whether it was me dumping him or d other way around since it was me who was all tears. why?? i really have no idea.
it wasnt really planned. i never meant for it to happen that day, but when we were on the fon and he asked me if i still wanted him(its a long story how we actually got there), i just couldnt answer him. i had to do it, i didnt want to lie to him. so i did.
when i finally got him to understand what i was trying to tell him all along despite my really shaky voice, he decided to end the conversation.
so anyway, if i continue narrating it this way it would seem like a story with a happy ending. i wish it does, but just like any girl at my age, i seem to understand that "stories with happy endings are simply stories that hasnt ended yet."-Mrs. Smith. i was really disapointed when he let it go that easy. he didnt even argued considering that my reason was really not that big a deal(some days i think it is but some days i dont). the next morning he waked me up with a really early text msg asking if i could go out. turns out he was outside my house waiting with a yellowcab pizza with Sorry written on it with mm's. he asked if he could join me and fufu to a movie and i said yeah. i couldnt let im in since my anti-filipino bro was up and so was my marry-only-chinese dad so he had to wait at the nearest mcdonalds while i fixed myself.
that day ended just fine. he actually did the things i wanted him to. but for sum reason i am just not contented. hindi pa rin kami but he seem to think that we are, and i cant even tell him that we arent. there are moments when i think well do just fine but whenver i hear my friends comments about him, i couldnt help thinking "onga noh?? bat d ko napansin un??". no offense guys, i appreciate your concern, if he cant please my friends then there must be realy something wrong with him. so dont hesitate to tell me everything. but how come it seems ok with me?? yesterday i was totaly ok and now im actually thinking of ways of getting rid of him again. frances must be right after all. i am so not ready to be in a relationship. she said all i wanted was a trophy. someone to play along with. i actually thought i was over that.
My heart belongs to you
So what could I do
To make you feel I'm down with
You see me hangin around
But you don't know how to make me feel for you, and
Each and every day, I try to make some sense of this
What you mean to me, I know it could be serious
Each and every nite, I dream about just holding you
Loving you like this, what is a girl supposed to do
Currently listening to: i love you-faith evans
Currently feeling: stressed
